Last night in the Support Group, I made the decision to go by Alice and the female pronouns. It felt good; it felt better than good; it was FANTASTIC! To be addressed finally as Alice by others all night was thrilling and comfortable.If I had known it would make me feel that way. I would have made that decision long ago. I felt a part of me missing click into place that wasn't there before, and I realized there are still steps to take. I can make those easier now though. I feel, no I know that.
I have to ask myself now why didn't I make the choice to go by Alice sooner? The Answer? My past. My Family. Myself. I had to grow first. I had to examine and delve deep into the recesses of my heart and soul. That took years. It took time to conquer fears and stigmas within and outside myself to find who I truly am. Only after all that was I able to stand in that group last night and say I'm Alice. And I am Alice. The person who is Corey is fading disappearing. Sure I still carry who he was within me. I still love to write, read, and do other things he liked to do. However I am now finding things that Alice likes to do he didn't. That is me, and when friends or family ask me, "What happened to Corey?" I'll say-
"He fell down a Rabbit Hole as I stepped out the Looking Glass." Till next time Enjoy your Journey's I am!
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