That's what I feel like and how I see myself right now. Little over a month on Hormones and certain things are already becoming noticeably less or more. Mostly they are only known to me. Such as facial hair thinning out a bit. At least enough for me to get the closest shaves I've ever had! However even with these slight changes I WANT MORE! NOW!
*cough* Sorry I don't know where that came from. Even though its true. I am tired of being a Bud. I want to Blossom! I know patience is a virtue, but I am in short supply. Finally after all these years I am on Hormones, my body can begin to change. But why does it have to take so long?! I want to be able to present myself as me, and I've never been able to do that before.
So what do I want? I want my breasts to develop. My facial features to become more rounded and feminine. Heck I might even get hips finally!*crosses fingers* I want to be able to dress and shop as the woman I know that I am. "Dresses, I love to wear dresses!" Even though I have yet to dress up as me in public or even in private. I think that's what I really want. Just for it all to be over or nearly so. That way when I dress up and say Hi I'm Alice. I will pass as me. Yes that's what I want. To pass as me!
To be able to walk down a street, or into a store, or a friends home as Alice. No more a bud but finally a blossom showing everyone who I really am. Unfortunately I have to wait. Who knows though I may get Lucky and be one of the small percentages who develop faster than others due to genetics. I'm not holding my breath though.
So here I am a Bud. Waiting for the Winter of my existence to end, and its Spring to begin. These are my ravings. I mean Journeys! Till next time, LATERS!
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