They Finally Get a Clue!

  These past two weeks have been hell. Its mostly my fault though. I can admit that. You see I had no way to get to the Pharmacy to get more or my Seizure meds. So I tried to stretch out what little of them I had. BIG MISTAKE. First came the withdrawal headaches and bloodshot eyes, but that was childsplay compared to what came next. But first some background history.
  Before I ever had my first seizure. I would have unpleasant moments of Deja Vu. Anxiety quickly attached itself to such episodes and i would Zone out withdrawing from the world. Only coming back when people would shake me or say my name. Ive since learned these are Acute Anxiety Blackouts. The next step 7 years ago after all these I would have a seizure.
  Now as my med levels began to get low all those symptoms minus the seizures returned and in full force! Two weeks of pure hell! My mother even took me to the ER after she and I thought I seized. I had a melt down as she drove me. Docs determined it was nothing more then Major Acute Anxiety and gave me Lorazapam to help curb the attacks until my med levels returned to normal. It has helped though i am experiencing lot of energy and hyper activity. That may not be to the medication though.
  Now heres the kicker! You see I had alot of follow up appointments after that ER with Doctors and such. And it being my Grandmother and Mother didn't know I was on Hormones I had to tell them so someone knew. Since they would be the ones telling the Hospital staff. Especially since I was blacking out alot still. They took it somewhat well. The common response was, "Why are you taking those?" I told them because that was the point I was at. My mother even tried blaming my currant predicament on the hormones! Even though she being a RN knew better. LOL. They still wont talk about it other than my Grandmother saying I support you in your decisions. Than no support comes. Ah well I knew it would be like this and I am ready for whatever may come next. I am just glad I don't have to hide from the family I am closest to that I am on Estrogen anymore! Ive been out a while to them both though and they still try to hide from it lol. Well anyhow I AM ALICE! These are my Journey's. Frightening as they are. Until next time. Do not hide from yours but Enjoy your travels!